2021 Starshine and Clay Fellows:
After Marching at the Manhattan #BLM Protest for Alton Sterling
and Philando Castile, I Try to Pray
but I do not know what to ask God.
Venn diagram Him into an oval,
overlap Him with my blackness.
Where the two shapes intersect,
opens a dark parted mouth
taking its last breath.
Relinquishing spirit
before a crowd of witnesses,
knowing it is finished
but not done.
aan ku soo laabano awoowgay
dear angel that took the form of a camel
who wrote you into this world
who will write you into the next
meaning, what have you planned exactly
where will you fold your wings
whose mouth do you intend to hold your feathers
who’s your testament, i am my abo’s
living legacy
to mean i have purpose
today, abo
the sun dapples your eyes
tomorrow it could be the earth
turning them copper
your soft sockets, who will save them
you told me, as we were crossing fields
waan dhafray inaan meeshaan ku keeno
meaning, abo
you suffered the dust
but you were no revolutionary
not even half angelic
you ran only to save your epidermis
look at your scars abo
fine network,
fine dashing,
fine spilling,
fine lining,
whole leg as a bark, composite
even in darkness
i joke
your leg was your ticket out
you joke
i ran through kampala first, for you
i joke
you ran to save what needed saving, your marrow not my existence
you joke
i knew you’d be here, it was just a question of where you’d be formed
abo, where?
abo, somewhere that has never known the coldness of bones
Mount Everest Be Jealous
I want shoulders bigger than the Million Man March.
They got to be pronounced turtleneck assassination
cotton squealing for mercy. Funny, we’ll ransack our sanity
for a voice that says we could look better. Whatever,
I don’t mind the heaviness, even if it means difficulty balancing.
I want shoulders big enough for a one-man football team.
Let sweat take years to slide off my shoulders.
Ladies, don’t leave me alone, tis the season for a new wave of sexy.
Each lift in the gym is a millimeter closer to what we may never see;
genetics should change its name to bad news, always reminding us
of impossible heights. I want shoulders that are a threat to goons
before I can enter a room, way too big for snapbacks to fit.
I want custom fashions to beg for my endorsement.
Place me in a Vanity Fair spread with only a pen and pad covering my privates.
Let me love and hate me. Save me from fantasy.
Gut out my bulky daydreams of a woman waking up
kissing me on the back of my deltoid.
Ban me from my image or grant me shoulders mammoth enough
to block it from me. And self-esteem be asleep—
says it ain’t got nothing to do with it. Overcompensate my lack of happiness.
Supplement my person with boulders that belong on no human
but far off in valleys where my self-image
sometimes may drift off through mist and murk overstretching
of what’s sexy in this world, but underneath, it all be too much,
abundant and plentiful, too heavy for air to even pass through.
The Gospel According to Mary Magdalene
CHAPTER 3
THERE is no sin here
in this new sun galaxy.
2 Let us now praise the Negress who shall be blessed;
a beloved, a powerful, a holy.
3 Form your own roots & look to the fruit
of the sky’s land to honor yourself.
4 Be wary of a world chewing off its own truth.
5 Proclaim the mind a treasure of souls who answer
with wisdom : desire is a bind of hot tempered weeping.
6 Stand in your savior’s place as the disciple of
her lord’s unwavering voice.
7 For if you believe in the spirit of Maat’s daughters,
you are loved & belong to no one but yourself.
8 Hark mightily womxn : you, seven forms of seven
souls wrathful, burning at the ills of this realm.
9 For you are an empire of your own doing, a channel
spilling forth greatness; kings ascending on high.
2021 Starshine and Clay Finalists:
Sacha Marvin Hodges is a writer, director, planner and architectural designer, from Virginia. A Callaloo and Cave Canem fellow, Hodges currently resides in the occupied Powhatan land known as Richmond, VA.
floc·ci·nau·ci·ni·hil·i·pil·i·fi·ca·tion: in two parts
or should the sermon go awry…
I. the preamble: after patricia smith
i’ve watched the river undress.
joined its unholy frenzy.
swam under the sheets &
snatched the old brass clock
from fate's decrepit
knuckles.
the river campy &
aroused whispers:
i want my water back
—a dry effort
having had enough
of my shit.
it tries to yank its gangly
offspring out my lungs
clothe
my grateful rage my shy
blood.
but the body don’t oblige
forks over
the soul instead
—a black barter.
an exchange of wet hell
damnation. a fever pitch
weak thing
honest birth.
see it breathe
on accident a doe’s first
steps all encased
in a cavity
shepherd
the wandering
bones anew.
speak not of the
cowardly arsenal under
your teeth.
click click click
to the tune of the bastard
unburdened.
coddle your violent vacancy
like spoiled milk in the
fridge —a minor
infraction
but still a waste
all the same.
Semein Washington is a 29 year old poet whose published work can be found in Light, Eye to the Telescope, Sijo: An International Journal of Poetry and Song, Sonder Midwest, and is forthcoming in Hawai’i Review. Semein's work is ecstatic poetry discussing topics of nature, science, religion, music, comic books, and human experience. He currently lives in Richmond, Virginia and teaches as an adjunct professor of English at John Tyler Community College.
I Remember Beringia Whole,
deep in my mitochondria,
through the long chain of mothers
that brought me here today,
as the taste of lousewort flowers
and lingonberry, the smell of Labrador Tea
blooming a spice box in the open tundra,
and of tanning caribou hide
hanging beside my door.
The soles of my feet, the pads of my toes,
press into soft moss and liverwort
painting black soil a spectrum
of yellow-green and red.
Cities of people creep by on the skyline,
spaced by months, in parties of twenty
at the most. Sometimes, I see the bones
they leave, the small hide drawbags
discarded for holes worn through them.
Sometimes, they walk to my fish camp,
surprised to find there is no family with me,
and ask me questions in a dialect funny to my ears.
Sometimes, I lead them to the men’s and women’s houses,
where they can rest a night, long enough to teach a dance
they do in the east.
I remember Beringia whole
in the bee-loud summer and the winter without sound,
wondering why we need Minoan cities
to fit criteria for Atlantis,
unaware of a million graves lapped up
by the ocean, the glacial migration inland
of thousands upon thousands
of years settled,
writing songs to spontaneous laughter
on a hillside the water will expose
again in times as distant,
beyond the memory of my name.
Rosa Castellano is a writer and teacher living in Richmond, VA, whose work has been supported by the Visual Arts Center of Virginia and by Tin House. She received a MFA in poetry from Virginia Commonwealth University and her work can be found or is forthcoming from the Southampton Review Online and The Coil.
All is Telling
I am not a storyteller
but do not doubt
the brown and boney
beginning—
the girl I was
in natted, terry-cloth
shorts too short
hungry
sweating-hot, and lonely.
Who prayed a hurricane
to launch the Loblolly
and send them spearing
through the walls
of our Florida-green
doublewide trailer.
Let me begin again
once upon a time
my dad drank
his K car into a tree.
In the yard, I squeezed
into the crushed
V of the hood
a brown Alice
in a ruffled metal
Wonderland. Following
the sun-heated steel
to the cracked
and shining glass
I raised my skinny arms
and prayed.
I prayed the moss
down from the trees
the father, from the house.
I prayed until the stars
that swum inside
my twelve-year-old body
flew out my eyes
white hot
as the sun
burning steel
ripping cloth
tearing
thigh
to scar.
It’s a mouth
that dark
thumb of skin
a story, curious
as the shine of glass
on asphalt or the way
wind can sometimes
come
from nothing.
Lysania Thomas is a brown, queer, woman storyteller, acclaimed as a two-time Southern Fried Poetry Slam Champion and four-time winner of Philadelphia Pride Poetry Slam. She is a highly regarded performer, host, workshop leader, and social justice education artist. Rooted in her various global communities, having spent her life at the intersection of arts, education and activism, Lysania’s work in youth development, LGBTQ+ advocacy and Prison Poetry (Reform) are the compass for her writing and passion. She has opened for the likes of Maya Angelou, Angela Davis, Nikki Giovanni, Sonia Sanchez, The Roots and many more. Lysania is currently working on her first book of poetry and resides in Portland, Oregon with her partner, child and pup, Jersey.
Korryn Gaines
(In the Key of Nikki-Rosa)
and like wit’ most storms that had traveled the chitlin’ circuit
big mad, moonshine heavy breath, violently picketin’ bodies
an' plywood for a once-love,
to make 'em more puddle than monsoon, again.
us kids unplugged what we hadn't broken, fully-- momma’s curlin’
iron, the cable box, the t.v., the microwave, the oven.
then sat still an’ waited for God to be almighty.
waited for an almighty God to bully the devil out the sky, from the earth and clear cross town where surely him and his lady friend could rekindle the kind of passion that make a man go mad 'nough to dismantle his creator’s creations.
waited an’ prayed and watched as the water rose and the big oak in the front yard split like cherry blossom switches momma would braid and spit on.
us
prayed and waited
in the musk of a darkness that trapped us and
freed us, equally.
"fix it, Lord." momma sang and rocked.
just as the sidin’ on the house began to remove itself
with all the help of a prepubescent, eager wind.
us
waited and prayed and watched momma believe and not.
as each cord played wrong 'cross the sky like the earth flat.
thunder echoed like Catfish hollerin’ out for Charlene on Friday nights when he had too much juice and not enough reefer. and she come lookin’ for momma to hide cause, “Catfish scary when he get all coked up like dat.”
us prayin’ wit’ eyes tight like hide
and seek, vocal cords clipped
waitin’ for God, to be God.
waitin’ for Catfish and Charlene to blast they Otis and Curtis and
Luther and stank up our shared porch wit’ black and milds and paper bag rum.
for Ms. Linda, from ‘cross the way to tend to the vegetable garden
the landlord said she can't have but "Baaaby!" she said, laughin’
so hard you could see all the well-polished gold caps in the back of her mouth.
prayin’ for Mookey to come ask to borrow sumin’ wit’ his stank tail.
“fix it, Lord.” momma sang and rocked.
momma not, and believin’.
us waitin’ for permission to be
scared, and to touch our momma
like we hers.
us is storm in the dark with the
storm
out the door and in. always tryin’ to get to
the eye.
us prayin’ eyes closed tight. vocal cords
clipped i pray for the sun. not God. for
honeysuckles and the candy lady. not God. for
breakfast, school donuts and pizza. not God. for
recess and English class. not God.
for the quiet of Mrs. Glenda’s school-bus rides. not God.
“fix it, Lord!” yeah, fix it Lord! “fix
it, Lord!” yeah, fix it Lord!
but God don’t show
up like God.
Catfish play Otis and Luther and Curtis anyway. bring candles and candy wit’ a black hangin’ off his lips, reekin’ of reefer and paper bag rum, like usual. an’ Ms. Glenda cry so hard 'bout her garden being drowned you can see all her well-polished golds in the front of her mouth. an’ Charlene come on Friday, like the Friday before the Friday before. an’ Mookey come beggin’ like all the other days wit’ his stank tail still stankin’.
an’ momma still believe, and
not.
and I begin to think maybe,
wasn’t nothin’ for God to fix
‘cept the sidin, which
needed changin’
anyways.